Once again amazed

Last night, went jogging with Pok, Leng and her friends. Clementi stadium. Well, I seriously hate running before. But things changed and I'm no longer the Teresa you might have known. Of course I'm not totally a changed person. Parts of me still remain. =) I love my life now because of God, friends and family. Okay, now back to working out, as I was on the track, a lot of things went through my mind. I started talking to God. A revelation, as we started out running, many start out fast but got tired and finally left with no energy to run. Some ran slow but constant and it's steady. Somehow, God was speaking. It's okay to go slow, it's is okay to ran alone at a period of your race because I'm with you. And at that moment, I said, I'm running for You and only You. This life, I'm returning it back to You.

Running on is tiring, painful and tough but what's the goal that kept me going right from the start? It is His promise. I wanted to stop at 5 rounds but I felt challenged. I know it sounds weird but, I really felt God asking me to go 2 more. Of course did a little of bargaining because I was already super tired! But then suddenly, a thought came to my mind, in the race with Him, sometimes I get so tired but what if at the point when I'm tired and God still ask me to go further will I obey, bargain or walk away? Will I hang on and ask for strength? Will I go in faith that I can accomplished what He asked of me? These were the thoughts, and I understood that it's a decision I have to make for myself. So I ran another 2 rounds, began it telling God to give me the physical strength to complete these two rounds. When I reached the point to stop. The last step, I feel so good! Physically, mentally and spiritually. Very joyful. =)

In many point of my life, if I haven't obey, if I haven't hold on to Him, if I haven't draw strength from Him, if I haven't let Him take control, if I haven't trust in Him, if I haven't cling onto His promises, if I haven't open up my ears to listen to God's voice I would have been stuck, drown by the problems around me, moving away from church and Him. If I haven't had the courage to obey, to move on , I wouldn't have been here. I won't be who I am today, right now. Mistakes made corrected. Mindset changed. I'm trusting in Him still. Thank You for my life. Ups and downs. I know everything in life happens for a reason and I won't ask because I know at the right time You will reveal. Not my will but Yours be done. =D

I shall end my post with the lyrics of Jay's 稻香! =) Gives me a very very country feeling. I'm going to post the MV soon. Promise. =D Shall change my blog song to that! =)

稻香

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好